Sunday, October 31, 2010

I wanna go there someday ....


Where is this u might ask?? ..... It's New Zealand .... 
i hope i can go there someday :) :) :) 


Should I say more ...


hmmm .... where to begin ...

it's just doesn't make any sense ... I kept thinking and thinking ... why r u always like that? Do you think that change is not good 4 u or r u simply just in denial ..

Hypocrite - In terms of definition from the

a person who pretends to be what he/she is not

a person who professes beliefs and opinions that he or she does not hold in order to conceal his or her real feelings or motives

or r u just simply a liar.... even to ur friend??? 

i feel sorry 4 that person but thinking again why do i hv to feel sorry when that person clearly wants to hv a life like that.. now i'm just pity that person bcoz that person won't change .. lies, lies and more lies .. do u think living with all lies would make u happy??

A person would not change if he/she does not want to change ... nobody can change them .. it is up to that person only ... 

i've had enough .. 


Saturday, October 30, 2010



I'm loving this song .... the music is catchy and relaxing ... happy song :)

Friday, October 29, 2010



If you search for tenderness It isn't hard to find. You can have the love you need to live. But if you look for truthfulness You might just as well be blind. It always seems to be so hard to give.

Honesty is such a lonely word. Everyone is so untrue. Honesty is hardly ever heard. And mostly what I need from you.

I can always find someone To say they sympathize. If I wear my heart out on my sleeve. But I don't want some pretty face To tell me pretty lies. All I want is someone to believe.

Honesty is such a lonely word. Everyone is so untrue. Honesty is hardly ever heard. And mostly what I need from you.

I can find a lover. I can find a friend. I can have security until the bitter end. Anyone can comfort me With promises again. I know, I know.

When I'm deep inside of me Don't be too concerned. I won't ask for nothin' while I'm gone. But when I want sincerity Tell me where else can I turn. Because you're the one that I depend upon.

Honesty is such a lonely word. Everyone is so untrue. Honesty is hardly ever heard. And mostly what I need from you.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Things to do this weekend ..


1. The usual chores ... 
2. Sleep hahaha ....
3. Watching reruns of Sungkyunkwan Scandal / My Girlfriend is Gumiho / The Fugitive / Lost and new eps of Supernatural ..
3. Mission - To find my poems that I wrote many many many years ago ... somehow or rather I want to read it again :)

Maher Zain - The Chosen One | ماهر زين - المختار


The Chosen One Lyrics

In a time of darkness and greed
It is your light that we need
You came to teach us how to live
Muhammad Ya Rasool Allah

You were so caring and kind
Your soul was full of light
You are the best of mankind
Muhammad Khaira Khalqillah
Sallu ‘ala Rasulillah, Habib Al Mustafa
Peace be upon The Messenger
The Chosen One

From luxury you turned away
And all night you would pray
Truthful in every word you say
Muhammad Ya Rasul Allah

Your face was brighter than the sun
Your beauty equaled by none
You are Allah’s Chosen One
Muhammad Khaira Khalqillah
Sallu ‘ala Rasulillah, Habib Al Mustafa
Peace be upon The Messenger
The Chosen One

I will try to follow your way
And do my best to live my life
As you taught me
I pray to be close to you
On that day and see you smile
When you see me
Sallu ‘ala Rasulillah, Habibil Mustafa
Peace be upon The Messenger
The Chosen One
Sallu ‘ala Rasulillah, Habibi Mustafa
Peace be upon The Messenger
The Chosen One

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Congratulations :)


Alhamdulillah .... congratulations to bro Maher Zain for reaching 1 million fans in facebook :) 


17 October 2010


What a beautiful morning that day .. It's my birthday yippeee .. and it fell on Sunday double yippee .. 
the most precious thing happened was I'm with my parents  ... so I got a kiss and doa from both of my parents .. I'm so blessed Thank You Allah for the moment .. 

Along came to the house and we did some "makan-makan" .. this was soooooo unplanned .. but they did it anyway ... 
so the menu .... 

Yummy  ^ _____ ^

And these are some of the bday presents ... Thank you ... you know who you are ... I'd appreciate it sooooooo much ... thank you from the bottom of my heart :)

Thank You Allah for everything ... the life You've given me, the loving family I'm grateful for, the caring friends who beside me through good and bad times, the challenges and obstacles that made me realize how life would be boring without it, to feel emotions - happy, content, bliss, love, sad, anger, pain, the opportunity to make mistakes and learn something from it and the courage to stand still and be firm in any of decisions made with guidance from You. Guide my steps throughout my journey and don't let me go astray Allah ... Alhamdulillah ... 

Age is just a number. There is always some specific moment when we become aware that our youth is gone; but, years after, we know it was much later. Wisdom doesn't necessarily come with age, sometimes age just shows up all by itself.


Me, Myself and I


I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes.

I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me.

If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me.

I am me, and I am Okay.

Virginia Satir quotes

Monday, October 25, 2010

Tired ...


Arrived home at 10.30 pm ..... after having dinner with my sistas at Sg Besi and then all of us went to my Along's house ... gathered with my niece and nephew and talk about hmm ghost stories ... 

but before that .. my nephew kinda shocked me by saying that he would want to take the snake .. his neighbour kept it as a pet and bring it to the house ... I was like screaming so badly and crying as well .. and i held my sister's blouse so tight that i ripped one of her buttons .... My heart was racing so fast that i couldn't breath at certain time .. fuhhh i'm so afraid of snakes .... 

Bla bla bla .....



Please be informed that I do not wish to listen to your rambling about your friends getting new girlfriend or broke off with someone else while you should be doing your work.

Kindly let me know if your daydreaming is over so I can do my work properly.

Thank you.

Maher Zain "Save The Soul" Showcase


Maher Zain? Who is this Maher Zain? What is so special about him? Well in my opinion .. he's just an ordinary guy with a great talent.  I had the chance to watch his showcase (after waiting for more than a month to get the tickets ..) oh btw, 2 tickets are free courtesy of my dear fren in which he said for my early bday present ... thank you .. you know who you are :)

This is my ticket woohoo :)

Actually I booked 4 tickets to watch the showcase on the 15th October but I get to watch it on 14th instead.  Oh well as long as I can watch that's fine with me.  My sister, my two nephews and myself arrived at 8.15 pm (thinking we're late .. oh no..) showed the usherette our tickets and we being ushered to our seats.  It turns out that someone already sat on our places ... hmm .. 

We've been ushered back to the main hall and the organizers tried to solve our problem.  It turns out there are other people outside who has the same problem. The organizers accidentally made double booking on the same tickets but my name was in the list.  It's almost showtime (almost 9 pm at that time) so what the organizers did was exchanged my tickets with RM70 tickets and they would refund the balance to me.  At first my sister is kinda mad and refused to take the offer because she wanted to be seated at the RM 100 seats (the ones that we bought), considered better view and near to the stage.. but then that's the only option we had ... so we took it.

We came in when In-Team were performing at that time. They performed two songs.  Very nice :)

In-Team :)

Next performer, Aishah .. yes .. what a lovely dress or should I say kinda jubah she wore that night .. purple colour my fav :) .... She performed two songs and one doa / zikir - from a child to their parents .. It's such a beautiful doa / zikir that I had tears in my eyes .. kinda makes me want to go and give a big hug to my parents ... I love you ma n abah soooooooooo much .....

very nice her dress / jubah right ... I want that :)

The emcees for tonight are none other than sis Wardina Saffiyah and bro Fedthri Yahya.  Sis Wardina looked so excited to be there .. haha ...they did requested for all to off their camera flashes if they want to take pictures because it might interrupting the audiences and most importantly bro Maher's performance ..

see .. sis Wardina looked so excited .. told ya :)

After the emcees announced that Maher Zain will perform next .. the crowd suddenly clapped and camera were clicking here and there ... song were playing and I instantly recognized the song .. It's Allahi Allah Kiya Karo (my sister Habsah's favourite song) .... but bro Maher is nowhere to be found ... and finally he showed up from the left side of the stage (in which I was seating hehe..) and started singing .. the crowd sings as well .. typical Malaysians .. whenever I'm in a concert they would sing their lungs out and sometimes it's a bit annoying because we paid quite a lot of money wanting to hear the singer sings not the other person sitting next to you.. am I right? hehehe ... 

Love to see him smiling :)

Next song is Ya Nabi Salam Alaika .. when the chorus part bro Maher encouraged all to sing with him meaning give salawat to our beloved Prophet Muhammad saw ..   Third song would be Always Be There ... some of the lyrics ....

"So when the time is hard
There’s no way to turn
As HE promise HE will always be there
To bless us with HIS love and HIS mercy
Coz, as HE promise HE will always be there
HE’s always watching us, guiding us
And HE knows what’s in all in our heart
So when you lose your way
To Allah you should turn
As HE promise HE will always be there…"
such a meaningful lyric .. don't you think so? My no. two favourite song... 
next is The Chosen One .. as mentioned in his facebook page .. "This song and the video are inspired by Muhammad, peace and blessings be upon him. Maher Zain and Awakening Records felt they had to respond to the recent attacks on Prophet Muhammad through cartoons and Facebook."  The song had clear message of what Prophet Muhammad was, his behaviour and his love towards his umat ... 
" I will try to follow your way
And do my best to live my life
As you taught me..."
Then..... the music that I was waiting for finally arrived ... My fav song "Open Your Eyes" Bro Maher did mentioned he had the idea of this song while he was driving at night ... 
"We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look bright to see the signs
We can’t keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
Guide us every single day..
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time.."
Such a beautiful song ... the first time I listened to the song I cried .. sometimes we tend to forget the true reason of why we are here ..  true purpose of life .. MasyaAllah...  I wish it had it's own music video .. In my honest opinion he did so many improvisation in his singing it's just simply to me somehow lost it's magic .. I wish he could have sing it while sitting in a stool and sing it just the way it is ...  
Next song would be "For The Rest of My Life" bro Maher said this song is especially to his wife and wants the husband to dedicate this song to their wives too .. hehehe .. He sang it with eyes closed and sometimes smile a little .. He changed the lyrics a bit and made the crowd cheered ... 
"I know deep in my heart,
Now that you here,
I strongly feel  love (he sang SAYANG ...)
And I have no doubt,
That I will love you eternally.."

So full of emotions aaaahhhh ...  his wife is so lucky :)
Next song .. Barakallah huma ... and the crowd were like cheering loudly, singing with him again hehehe ... He even went down the stage and u guess it crowd going crazy with some of the people went in front and taking pictures.. I'm singing quietly because some of the songs I did record (eventhough it clearly stated that any recording is prohibited) yeah I like breaking rules so sue me hehehe ...  after that bro Maher said thank you and he went off stage ... I was like wait a minute .. it's that all .. I thought he's going to sing 8 songs .. but I'm counting (yes I'm counting) it's only been 7 .. hmm ...
Then bro Maher shouted "do you want more .. I can't hear you.." the crowd cheered his name Maher Zain over and over ... until he went back and said MasyaAllah ... 
He mentioned that this is going to be his last song .. and he asked to guess which song is it.. and of course we guess it right .. It's InsyaAllah :) 

So that's the end of it.  We went back early .. didn't get the chance to see him in person since there's no meet and greet fans session that night.  I felt so satisfied with the showcase .. despite the chaos (with all the seatings confusion..), bro Maher gave his all out performance .. thank you .. Alhamdulillah :) 
So what about Maher Zain ... he is just an ordinary guy but he has a great talent, good presence and his songs were beautiful, his lyrics really touched me and made me think that whatever things that I do, feel, touch,  ... whether I'm feeling happy, sad, mad, tense, all goes back to Allah .. without Allah I am nothing .... Alhamdulillah ..  Thank You Allah ...


Saturday, October 23, 2010

So this is story of my life


My first post .... yeah finally I have a blog .. 
Today Saturday, 23 October 2010 .... the beginning ... 
Credit goes out to my beautiful niece, Nadzira who is teaching me how to do all of this .. thank you so much Ira...